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 | I'm cool. Ultra, mega, super cool.
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So in general, I am consciously paradoxical.
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I have been on an expedition since sixth grade. My purpose in my existence is to fulfill my own perpetual desire to achieve complete self-awareness and authentic contentment within. As I am not perfect, I strive to better myself as a being in order to make significant people in my life happy and to be able to efficiently contribute to the enrichment of humanity as well as our world.
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I have not always obeyed the "rules". So while most people would reject their own feelings of regrets, blame their mistakes on their upbringing, surroundings, the society... or adamantly stand by the motto "live life without any regrets"; I have been bearing and suffering from a couple regrets that I admit to and have not been able to let go. I have not always been a great sister. I overlooked many things during my teen years of confusion and naivete. While I was lost in the middle, I lost a lot of precious time trying to figure out the b i g, bewildering world that I was exposed to. I struggled to survive the brutal society, but I inadvertently did so on the expense of my love ones. As the same time I was trying to find my own individuality, I took away my sisters'... mostly Courtney's. I feel badly about that. They were just so simple. Life to them was simple. I on the other hand, am complex. The world is perplexed. They don't question the way things are, I have a soul full of questions. They are fine with staying with the tradition, and I, I must progress. They follow the established rules, I make my own rules. They believe in God, I search for truth--- It should've been simple, but I made life for a period of time so difficult for her. I owe her a lot. So much. So much. She has been so strong. She just quietly endures all the while staying loyal and generous as a sister. I cannot remember when she couldn't pull through for me. She has been so forgiving and I just really want to make it all up to her.
I l o v e m y f a m i l y .
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After years of searching, studying, questioning, exploring, attending churches of various denominations, meetings and temples, as well as analyzing differing dogmas; I finally found a spiritual place I am comfortable with, and it is very "Zen". However, as I have yet to delve into a few religions and am not through studying them all, I am unable to declare my decided faith. I can tell you for sure though, that I am fascinated with Spiritualism and metaphysical teachings.
Being that I am constantly growing, I am certain that my perceptions will also broaden over the years and I will make many more new discoveries. This makes sense because nothing is absolute. | | | | General Information | | Profile Type: | Personal | | Rating: |  | | Gender: |  Female | | Age: | 26 | | Tags: | photography girl memories sentimental journal diary log nature family love self-portraits random miscellaneous art expressive | | I'm here for: | Photo sharing | | Contact Information | | Personal website: | http://myspace.com/incogneato_nine | | My Cities | | Hometown: |  United States | | Birthplace: | United States, New Mexico, Albuquerque | | Background & Lifestyle | | Marital status: | In a relationship | | Sexual orientation: | Bi | | Smoking: | Non-smoker | | Drinking: | Light (social) drinker | | Children: | I don't have kids yet | | Education: | Post grad | | Ethnicity: | Asian | | Origin: | Vietnamese | | Body type: | Slim/slender | | Height: | Tall | | Friends: | James Philip Pegg, artist, FOTOFILE, [( BlackCell )], Miss Trynh, ItsOnlyReggie, Cynthia127, Ohmydopeness | | Friend of: | Elric, Simona44, James Philip Pegg, artist, trsi, FOTOFILE, Mercury7 Science Center Inc., GRD, [( BlackCell )], Sparkle, Kla, Tiger in the rain, Don, Tita, RuSSiaN SeX <-**- BARABAN.com <-**- NoT, SirJohn, Miss Trynh, Stein Sjølie, christian, KMax, DHCOASTER, ItsOnlyReggie, * Helen, Cynthia127, Ohmydopeness, Vietnammers, Tracert, TracerMN, Meanbugga, Duce Vagabond, Yuki, Jo, & Piri Battle the Evil Green, Blog, Miguel, ~*~ Ms_Giggl3s ~*~, Sfang, Shoop3D, Octaviot, Milton, MsPen, DJPablo, John Chavez, Willie, Bintang Popular 3, mdrewnik, 1ragincajun, Dan Martinez, JonStudios, TanyaMarc, NoLove4Me, Steve Bruelin, sedgwick, JKH01100, CRV, mark, manwe, js, Tom, scuubaman, mmartysb, John, ivan, An6el, Bill, aabacca, awitani, johnny, Stonecutter, AK, asu123, Piikani Nation, Canada, HotAnn007's smiles : ), Eric, Brian David Phillips, The Big Bad Daddy Wolf, FXE1980, ATumnsweeTluv, R+L, rsmc, Mark B, 23forever, ?, juan, Jace, J Sparrow, K_1, koolbreeze, bounce, WC, John Doe, bigvito, MARTA INES, Glenn's World, goldberd, Troy, comrademao, Dave, fireballs, JESUS - MY LORD, KG4MVP, yinhua, Saratime, Robert, 6, susanka11, lolla, FXE1980, Sadat and Mieko Valentine, Hanson.Sun, K2 Mountain, dgr, stp2dt, cookie, cesar, dwaine, Sam_6, Kris Sreekandath, SexBandit24, wow100903, Julius, premal, Rejix, *UNIQUE (just like everyone else)*, skye, Brian, Khmershaq, i love hotties, Ben Lau, Massimiliano, Joe, Sirron, Long John, Mattheej, Provert, crazy, AdamM, Marco, doug, Anna, southernman, Mark, Terry, KAMERA, MaleLesbian, FotoPosto, Melly, Juancheeto, sebastian, **** YOUR MidNiGhT FaNtaSY***, cipos, Monica, chris, Alabanaa, Franc, Ella, Igor Molochevskiy, BIzza, boboisgreat, kingofdurians, DanMac, Patrick Quinn, Glassman8, The Human Condition, Simon :-), Mosjoker, Josie, Diana, Chris, Gabo, zehcnas1996, oldestvoyeur, swetyyboy, Thierryaroulettes2, Luke, mrbmctx, Ahmed, Sicnarf023, Buc, Muktaaa, Lingerieeurope, Romancygamed, Gromko, YunusEmre, Propman, Dasha, Dide, Marinaaa89, Cathie1985, 75, Realro33, Lovinseriah, Karakaya, Mustanghotties, Pablo, Dasha Virbel, WCW, Aziira, caro & her man, yak, Kosnor, Atakamai, Ediam, Renelsmith, Ron1951, Duckmanxxx, ClitaR, Texaspuffy(*)(*)lover, Juggernaut95 | |
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